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Name: Quinn Fabray
Fandom: Glee
Age: ~17-18
Canon Point: post S03E11
Original Universe or Alternate Universe? OU
Personality: When we first meet Quinn in Glee she seems to the stereotypical head cheerleader and all around mean girl. She bullies Rachel Berry, along with the rest of the glee club and anyone else she deems “uncool.” She is manipulative and controlling, and will do whatever she has to in order to get what she wants, even if it means hurting others.
However like with most people there is more to Quinn than simply being a mean girl. Underneath it all, Quinn is insecure and desperately looking for someone to love her as she is, even though she’s afraid of showing people that. Quinn came from a home where nothing less than perfect was acceptable, and she learned how to be manipulative and controlling from her father. Having little control at home (it didn’t help her mother was a closet alcoholic) Quinn exerted what she could at school.
Things fell apart of Quinn when it became public she was pregnant. Her popularity which meant so much to her became nonexistent, as did her confidence. Quinn felt like a freak – things got even worse when she was kicked out of her home by her father. Her father could not accept the fact Quinn was pregnant and had screwed up in such a way, and her mother hid behind her father.
During this time Quinn began to show her caring side more, such as when she helped Mercedes deal with an apparent eating disorder. Thanks to the New Directions Quinn began to be more comfortable in her own skin, even though she longed to be popular again.
Quinn decided to give Beth up for adoption after giving birth to her, as she didn’t feel suited to being a parent. The next year in school Quinn worked to gain her popularity back, which brought out the old mean Quinn. She rejoined the Cheerios, and seemed set on destroying Rachel Berry as Quinn’s on and off flame Finn was interested in her. However Quinn was not happy, she felt that there was something missing but had no idea what that was. For the next year she tries to find that, filling her life with attempts to get her popularity and body back, and dating various boys (namely Sam and Finn), but in the end she ends up hurting one and being dumped by another.
Over the next summer everything changed, Quinn found a new group of friends named the Skanks. She died her hair pink, she smokes, and has what most people would call a bad attitude. She claims she’s found herself, but she’s more lost than ever. This Quinn has no qualms about hurting people’s feelings, and telling like it is. She’s gone from the cheerleader bully, to the tough girl bully who smokes under the bleachers. She’s angry at the world and more confused than ever. She’s convinced that by acting tough, it means she’ll become tough and everything will be better. That if she ignores all the problems in her life that they’ll simply go away. More than ever, though she doesn’t realize it, same as ever Quinn is looking for love and acceptance. She’s lost the zest for life, and has no idea what to replace it with.
When we first meet Quinn in Glee she seems to the stereotypical head cheerleader and all around mean girl. She bullies Rachel Berry, along with the rest of the glee club and anyone else she deems uncool. She is manipulative and controlling, and will do whatever she has to in order to get what she wants, even if it means hurting others.
However like with most people there is more to Quinn than simply being a mean girl. Underneath it all, Quinn is insecure and desperately looking for someone to love her as she is, even though she’s afraid of showing people that. Quinn came from a home where nothing less than perfect was acceptable, and she learned how to be manipulative and controlling from her father. Having little control at home (it didn’t help her mother was a closet alcoholic) Quinn exerted what she could at school.
Things fell apart of Quinn when it became public she was pregnant. Her popularity which meant so much to her became nonexistent, as did her confidence. Quinn felt like a freak – things got even worse when she was kicked out of her home by her father. Her father could not accept the fact Quinn was pregnant and had screwed up in such a way, and her mother hid behind her father.
During this time Quinn began to show her caring side more, such as when she helped Mercedes deal with an apparent eating disorder. Thanks to the New Directions Quinn began to be more comfortable in her own skin, even though she longed to be popular again.
Quinn decided to give Beth up for adoption after giving birth to her, as she didn’t feel suited to being a parent. The next year in school Quinn worked to gain her popularity back, which brought out the old mean Quinn. She rejoined the Cheerios, and seemed set on destroying Rachel Berry as Quinn’s on and off flame Finn was interested in her. However Quinn was not happy, she felt that there was something missing but had no idea what that was. For the next year she tries to find that, filling her life with attempts to get her popularity and body back, and dating various boys (namely Sam and Finn), but in the end she ends up hurting one and being dumped by another.
Over the next summer everything changed, Quinn found a new group of friends named the Skanks. She died her hair pink, she smokes, and has what most people would call a bad attitude. She claims she’s found herself, but she’s more lost than ever. This Quinn has no qualms about hurting people’s feelings, and telling like it is. She’s gone from the cheerleader bully, to the tough girl bully who smokes under the bleachers. She’s angry at the world and more confused than ever. She’s convinced that by acting tough, it means she’ll become tough and everything will be better. That if she ignores all the problems in her life that they’ll simply go away. More than ever, though she doesn’t realize it, same as ever Quinn is looking for love and acceptance. She’s lost the zest for life, and has no idea what to replace it with.
Quinn has always had incredibly low self esteem, as a result of being bullied as a child and the pressures put on her by her father. She has always hidden this in various ways; bullying others, having to control everyone and everything around her and so on. The only time Quinn opens up about her low self esteem is when pictures of her as “Lucy,” surface.
She rarely ever shows emotion, or talks about how she is feeling - this is primarily due to her upbringing. Whenever something bad happened her parents would never speak of it and act like it simply never happened. This also taught Quinn at a young age she had no one she could rely on, which causes her to have trouble opening up and trusting people, even her friends.
While never explicitly stated in canon it has been heavily implied that Quinn suffers from postpartum or manic depression.
Background: Glee + Quinn's Bio
Other Notables: N/A
Inventory:
- one black jacket
- one black and white dress
- one pair of black shoes
- one gold cross
- a picture of Beth
NETWORK SAMPLE:
[ quinn looks at the feed, the poor girl looks exhausted. mostly because she is exhausted. she is so emotionally drained right now it's taking all her strength to make this video.
she had finally had her life together. things were back on track, and for the first time quinn could remember she was actually looking foreword to the future. she was going to go to yale, she was a part of her daughter's life, and now... this. after everything she had gone through. after everything she had lost, everything she had messed up and then everything she had fought to get back she had ended up here.
what was the point? what was the point of anything? maybe she wasn't meant to be happy. because every time something went right in her life, something awful always happened afterwords. why did she even try any more?
and yet there she is, making a video. sending her message out to god knows who. because as exhausted as she is, quinn is also scared. it's something she's used to feeling, mostly because in some way everything scares her to some extent. but before she could hide it, now she's not so sure. she's hoping they'll be someone she knows here, it would make things somewhat easier. maybe. possibly.
...probably not. ]
Since we're going to be stuck here, I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Quinn Fabray.
[ beat. then a sigh, because this is so stupid. the girl looks impatient and annoyed. she isn't about to let anyone know how frightened she is. she may have changed a lot over the past few years, but that was one thing that never changed at all. ]
If there is anyone from Lima here, please respond to this.
[ and there is another pause and another slight face, because quinn realizes how stupid this sounds. she's never had to do anything like this before - she doesn't know how to do this.
she clicks off the feed. before she can make a fool out of herself, before she can give away the fact she is terrified. ]
LOG SAMPLE:
(taken from here)
Quinn tells the rest of the Skanks to go on without her, she needs another cigarette. As soon as they’re gone she takes a very deep breath and suppresses the scream she’s kept inside since Rachel left. It’s a combination of anger, frustration and other emotions she doesn’t want to deal with.
Who the hell is Rachel Berry to come here and tell Quinn how she feels? How could she stand there in her perfectly clean clothes, and hair and tell Quinn what she is feeling? What would Rachel Berry know about being sad? Rachel Berry who gets whatever she wants. Rachel Berry who has Finn, and Kurt and people who love her. What did she know?
Quinn digs around in her bag looking for her cigarettes and lighter. “I am not sad,” Quinn says to herself, and then she mutters a few expletives under her breath. It’s almost like she’s saying it to convince herself now.
Why would she miss being in the New Directions? There was nothing there for her—nothing at all. Besides, it wasn’t like they’d miss her. Didn’t friends talk to each other in the summer? It was too easy to disappear, too easy to join the Skanks. If those people had been her friends, where were they? Not there, it was easier that way. Easier to tell Quinn she was messed up because she was sad, and she needed them. Doing anything else would mean effort, and no one really put in effort anymore. No one in that stupid club cared about anyone else’s feelings, except Kurt, and Rachel and Brittany – for some reason they rated as untouchable. Not that Schuester ever did anything to help. He was like a man child, and it was pathetic.
“I don’t need anyone,” Quinn says softly to herself, lighting a cigarette and taking a long drag.
She begins to pace as she smokes. She meant it when she said the Skanks were her friends, sort of. They didn’t judge her for one thing. None of them cared that she had been pregnant, or cheated, or was probably going to amount to nothing in her life. She didn’t need to put in any effort with them, she didn’t even need to manipulate them to like her. The Skanks just seemed happy there was one more person to hold someone’s head into the toilet. Sure, the new look had scared her mother, but she didn’t do anything. She didn’t tell Quinn what she was supposedly feeling, she just asked that Quinn donate her old clothes to the church instead of cutting them up.
Still, Quinn exhales, there was something missing. Something which was not the New Directions, no, no – never. She did not miss them, what would it take to prove that? She was fine, this was the new her – the new her just happened to be darker. The new her liked cigarettes and Avenged Sevenfold, and throwing ketchup covered tampons at people. Like it or not this was the new her, and there was nothing Rachel Berry, or anyone in the New Directions could do to change that.
She takes one last drag on the cigarette, before dropping it to the ground and stomping on it. Next person to annoy her was getting their head in the toilet.